january 24th, 2017: hey! whos my best friend?

i didnt set my alarm, but it doesnt really matter these days. partly because i still wake up at the same time. partly because it doesnt matter if i do or not.

today i got back into "making my rounds." that made for a long conversation with little sonny. id prefer to just sit back and just deal with whatever comes up, though sometimes thats just not easy. i mean it is. but living with it maybe isnt?

there was one of those meetings today for fund raisers and such. this time they gave out free food as part of some trial change thing theyre doing. as is the usual way of things working out food-wise, it sucked. for me. there was also a lady there to talk about getting assigned to new places. that was mostly depressing. and then some woman from the nutrition thing felt like getting all in my bubble. i could feel how awkward it looked for me. 

today at work ashely kinda got to me. she shredded a bunch of papers that we could possibly need. rather than really deal with it i just distanced myself from it. anything i said in that moment wouldve likely just degenerated into a series of personal attacks or something. i dont think its so much that she did it as much as it is that she doesnt think. that bothers me. ignorance.

gym time was a little rough. i didnt time my inhaler right so my run ended early. and since we left late the place was full and that got into the way of a good workout. oh well. 

laundry. house of cards. wrestling. sleep.