january 1st, 2016: ...and i dont feel any different. again.

one of the first emails i see in the morning is that jerrod shared a post/memory. not sure what that could possibly be. i was only thinking of recent happenings; that was the problem. it was the post from three years ago about bane and the bike. thats a classic picture.

this is the first day where ill be free of any real things to do. cleaning up and reading x-factor. 

sometimes i feel like mr madrox. my minds always going in so many directions it makes it almost impossible to fully back any decision. and i take so much time looking at those other directions i think it gets in the way of me taking the time to take things in. 

reading a houzz article about dishwashers. maybe i should start using mine. waters included in my rent so it makes sense if i want to get the most out of it.

watching black dynamite. its a solid movie. maybe its just about spacing out the views just often enough. 

finishing off hush. lots of stuff happened in that. it was pretty hard to keep up with because of all the extra details and introductions, but it was good for what it was.

talking to mom about grandma. her mind isnt where it used to be. unfortunately, that's a common trend right now... i guess the hardest part for me is not having an explanation. im so used to everything having an answer. maybe with a certain amount of 'blind acceptance' but theres still at least an understanding.