january 3rd 2014: arrgh kelly

timelys smart wake up thing is odd. its almost making things worse...

i rode to the gym this morning. short work out with soothing sounds of now, now. felt it a little more than usual. walked a bit. thought about life. sat a bit. thought about life. went home. in the rain. the ride ended with 'better weather.'

so i went to pick up my car after taking it in for a gearbox and engine oil change. 138 pounds. even if that were dollars it would be a lot. another reason i cant wait for this to be behind me. one more year.

the weather cleared up. a nice day by local standards for this time of year. i grab my bag to go to lunch. *kshhhh* rain. heavy rain. or so i thought. it was hail. another reason i cant wait for this to be behind me. one. more. year.

conversations about school, jason mraz underground king of '98, and doing the education. aint no hold up.

worked my way out some of my routine sounds as of late. i really need to get on the amp to hear some variety. theres something else that's missing too i think. i need something to get my imagination going. might be lack of playing with others. maybe depression? both valid possibilities.