february 19th, 2017: what will be, will be

waking up from a strange dream involving an alligator fight. 

i decided to try my hand with the chamelon all star gotta shine 1s. it went well, but in my rush to get the order in i didnt change the size. so that kinda sucks. and they sold out immediately pretty much so now getting an additional size isnt an option. i guess ill just have to wait until thursday to see how it plays out.

the plan from there was to do typical sunday gym things, but instead i found myself taking a nap. id waken up pretty early again so i maybe i shouldve seen that coming.

watching the flash for a few episodes. working on emulator things so i can play tony hawk. its a largely uneventful day. theres a term ive been throwing around a lot... trying to use the power of instagram to win tickets to a show that im not sure i care to attend. its something of a hassle. how do people share things on there?

making a little dinner and watching the nba all-star game. its an odd mess of flashy kerfuffleness. but its fairly entertaining. somewhere in there i talked to the grandparents for a bit. those conversations are getting a little harder every time. another thing to add to a list that doesnt seem to ever get any shorter...

february 18th, 2017: bean casserole with a side of bean soup

im not sure what it is about me and weekends, but the sleep is not very good. once again im up at around 3ish in the morning and pretty awake. eventually i fell back to sleep a couple hours later. somewhere in there were some pretty strange dreams. something about fighting off birds, exploring underground, and a war between hackers.

its a saturday but the shoe releases arent for me. so that makes for a stress free morning. i did make an attempt for the 12 ovo's though. getting an oil change while i wait on the results. 

sometime during the gym i got my no. saw that coming...

i ended up taking a trip to el paso with king kai. it was largely a waste. the outlets were a letdown. pf changs was fantastic. all that music didnt have hawthorne heights tickets. the mall didnt have anything going for it either.

one high point, or at least one of interest...macys. theyre having a sale on everything. like...everything. if you can see it, you can buy it. 

some of the work guys were going to be in the area, but we werent quite sure how that was going to work. after a few conversations we werent any better off. after some debating it was time to move on. the day didnt have much going for it and the night wasnt really looking like it would change. but sams club...sams came through.

finally home. watching some rick and morty and looking at some retro 1 all star videos. still not sure what to think about those.

february 17th, 2017: eat the cake.

today was a pretty decent workout day. i didnt completely finish it, but that was mostly due to back pain and my arms saying no. 

its the day before a 3-day weekend which would usually mean getting out early. however, theres a thing at 2 and 2:45. how quaint.

at home and trying to figure out what to do. (stress) eating a can of chili and watching stuff. a little dtns, some arrow, whatever adult swim threw at me. somewhere in there my body decided to go to sleep. it was the first time ive gone to sleep without typing up my day since last year. technically, i guess the last time would be a concert night...but thats a little different.

february 16th, 2017: stand-up COWmedy

this mornings eric andre show had harry shum on to be interviewed about his sub-zero role. it's more entertaining than it should be. its a pretty good way to start the day.

i was all set to get in and run through some post-inspection clean-up for the second round. got to work earlier than usual. took care of a bunch of things. and waited. and waited. then a little more. apparently there was something of a misunderstanding and its not happening. what i did yesterday covered me for today. whoop whoop.

things finally worked our for king kai and he'll be going off to do big things in a few months. i kinda feel like its a small personal victory in a way.

lunch with a lot more cow talk than one should have. something about currency cows and bat-based slaughter houses. with a few jokes in there about corsair being homeless with a dog doing better than he is. its entertaining and more importantly distracting.

after talking to kai about how the world works for awhile i went off to the gym to take care of some stress i guess. and see if my body is done being all worn out. its not. i need to really take some time to get things back on track. 

out to the movies to see lego batman. its been a long time. im not sure what the last movie i saw was. hmm... maybe ill never know.

watching youtube videos and looking at shoe stuff. and then the phone rang. talking to anthony for about an hour about a lot of stuff. those calls put me in a pretty good mood until theyre over. then depression kinda sets back in as i think about the life i dont have any more.
*on the subject of wanting attention*
anthony: i just want someone to touch my butt. musically of course
music things are going pretty well for him so thats good to hear. its been a pretty rough road. maybe we dont hate it when our friends become successful... and apparently i need to look up 'manborg' and houndmouth's my cousin greg. securing a spot in the browser to come back to that.

back to my 12 pack of tabs.

february 15th, 2017: THIS is power!

i went off and did my little promotion thing for work today. so we'll see how that goes. im pretty sure i know how it went since i was there and all, but i wont get my official 'no thanks' notice for several weeks. there were things i remembered looking over, however by the time i got to them i was as mentally checked out as when i studied them. no good in that.

killing my time with conversation and stuff before retreating to my office to see about doing something productive. 

a mid-day gym session to make up for the fat bastard ive been over the last week or so. it wasnt great, but it happened. ive felt very weak the last little while. i have a few ideas as to why and none of which have i worked on.

between that and a little pre inspection thing i found time to make a pretty all right little picture. taking pictures of myself is never easy. but if you take enough, eventually one will work out.

inspection things. im doing pretty well considering this isnt my real job so thats pretty nice. whats not nice is that it took so much of my time. but better that than the other potential outcomes.

finishing off the episode of house i started this morning and that episode of nightline with juji. topping that off mcdonalds for dinner because im a fat bastard.